MY LIFE LATELY

Self-Care Reminder

This is just the reminder I needed. Read how my life has changed over the past couple of months.

Written 7/3/2023

These past couple of months have really taken a toll on my mental health. I allowed everything to pile up so high I became unrecognizable. I became a yes man and a people pleaser. Boundaries did not exist in the space I created, which allowed those around me to intentionally or unintentionally take advantage of me.

It got so bad my only sense of security and livelihood was almost ripped way from me. My position at work was at risk, I was making mistake after mistake, and was on the last thread. All the relationships in my life were crumbling and are still recovering to this very day. Everyone around me could see that I was drowning, but me. I was a shell. A robot. I was only ding enough to get me through to the next day.

It took me getting to my lowest self, crying everyday, and almost losing everything to realize the damage I placed in my life. I didn't know how to get back to me. Everyone made it clear that the only one who could help me was... me. I'm the only one who could answer my own questions. They forced me to stop moving, take a seat, actually put the work in on myself. This journey has been extremely hard, but everyday I decide to just keep going.

I say all this to say, you must always choose you. Pause the world, ask yourself the tough questions, and take it a day at a time. Life is beautiful when you're the only one in control of it.